I love giving gifts, and supporting missions. But also suffered from lacked of real training in finances, and being able to control the spontaneity which is a by-product of being ADHD. This is not an accuse, just a reality which was reaffirmed by a counselor friend who specializes in rehabilitation therapy. Part of her work is helping ADHD people learning to live within their means.
My dilemma seems odd, as my mom, uncles, and two of my brothers were great savers. One brother is like myself, a spender with little regard for what the future might hold. The gracious Lord has been refining me in this area for many years, since I am a slow learner. However, over the last two years in particular, the Sweet Lord has at times gently, and at other times has whacked me along the head to shape up. He allowed words from friends that have left a scar due to this issue which remind ed me one of my favorite verses found in Proverbs. "Better a slap from a friend than a kiss from a fool."
I am blessed with good friends, and family member's who lovingly point out my flaws, and short sightedness regarding finances. For I came to a point of humiliation last month, and my church food closet came to my aid. Also, I have had to swallow the bitter truth, that in this area, I have been a poor steward, and have hurt.my testimony. This is my shame! The good news is that during this past year, I have been really striving to not buy and to reconcile my finances. How do I know I am holding to this stand? Well, it transpired with my up and coming surgery. I had to take a stand that regardless of the discomfort and the havoc my gate had on my back, I would wait on the Lord.
Knowing how much it would cost, I stood in faith knowing that if God wanted me to have the surgery, He and He alone would have to make it possible. I could not add another payment to my monthly obligations nor could or would I borrow the funds also adding more payments. My heat and mind were made up! I set the 9th of January as the deadline. If the financing did not come, I would wait on the operation. Are you ready for this? Yesterday, I received a call from my surgeons business office. Chris, the gal who has been working with me on my insurance, called me. She reworked my insurance for this year, as the prior amount was based on last year. The charges went from $1769.97 to $369.97. I gasped and yelled out loud, Praise the Lord! A difference of $1400.00? Only God can preform such a miracle!
Lesson: Be willing to accept whatever His will is; He is good to those who trust Him and Him alone. Now, I will go ahead with the surgery, and will trust the Lord for having the funds to be able to pay the bill off.
Trust in the Lord, and He will bring the plans He has for us, and will bring everything to fruition. Lean not on your own understanding, but in all things bring them before the Throne of Grace, trusting He will take care of you, for He is promises are true, and He is molding, and refining us into pure gold, so we will shine the light and glory of His Son Jesus Christ!
My dilemma seems odd, as my mom, uncles, and two of my brothers were great savers. One brother is like myself, a spender with little regard for what the future might hold. The gracious Lord has been refining me in this area for many years, since I am a slow learner. However, over the last two years in particular, the Sweet Lord has at times gently, and at other times has whacked me along the head to shape up. He allowed words from friends that have left a scar due to this issue which remind ed me one of my favorite verses found in Proverbs. "Better a slap from a friend than a kiss from a fool."
I am blessed with good friends, and family member's who lovingly point out my flaws, and short sightedness regarding finances. For I came to a point of humiliation last month, and my church food closet came to my aid. Also, I have had to swallow the bitter truth, that in this area, I have been a poor steward, and have hurt.my testimony. This is my shame! The good news is that during this past year, I have been really striving to not buy and to reconcile my finances. How do I know I am holding to this stand? Well, it transpired with my up and coming surgery. I had to take a stand that regardless of the discomfort and the havoc my gate had on my back, I would wait on the Lord.
Knowing how much it would cost, I stood in faith knowing that if God wanted me to have the surgery, He and He alone would have to make it possible. I could not add another payment to my monthly obligations nor could or would I borrow the funds also adding more payments. My heat and mind were made up! I set the 9th of January as the deadline. If the financing did not come, I would wait on the operation. Are you ready for this? Yesterday, I received a call from my surgeons business office. Chris, the gal who has been working with me on my insurance, called me. She reworked my insurance for this year, as the prior amount was based on last year. The charges went from $1769.97 to $369.97. I gasped and yelled out loud, Praise the Lord! A difference of $1400.00? Only God can preform such a miracle!
Lesson: Be willing to accept whatever His will is; He is good to those who trust Him and Him alone. Now, I will go ahead with the surgery, and will trust the Lord for having the funds to be able to pay the bill off.
Trust in the Lord, and He will bring the plans He has for us, and will bring everything to fruition. Lean not on your own understanding, but in all things bring them before the Throne of Grace, trusting He will take care of you, for He is promises are true, and He is molding, and refining us into pure gold, so we will shine the light and glory of His Son Jesus Christ!
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